Monday, October 5, 2009
Do you know what it feels like to have a broken heart? You feel empty, betrayed, lonely and have no hapiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh because you know it's not going to help, and you don't want to cry because it will only make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, like the whole world is against you. It leaves deep scars in your heart that are there forever. You don't think it'll ever end, but no matter what this person has done to you, it's impossible not to love them. Then after a few weeks, you start to feel a sense of relief as if you're becoming happy again. But you realise after a few days that you're only in denial. Then you're back to where you were again. An empty soul with teary eyes. You thought you were over him, but really, you just stopped showing it. No one understands how you feel or how deep you're hurt because it hasn't happened to them. And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know how you feel, they don't know the true pain that you carry around with you each and everyday. So you find that you're alone in this. The feeling starts to overwhelm you, and you break down because you know you've had enough. Because you've wasted so many nights laying awake in bed with wasteful sighs, spent so many nights pouring your eyes out. Because you've spent so many days walking around with the pasted smile, so many days being left with the scars of rejection. After a million tears have been shed however, you finally pull yourself together and keep going. Even though your throat starts to hurt and your eyes burn with held back tears, you put on a brave face and carry on. You're still hurt but you've learnt to hide it from everyone else so that they think you're okay. So that they don't ask you questions, and so that you don't have to lie to them. And then you sit back and wonder how ONE person could've caused all of this..